Sanuk D
I don't know what I'm doing here, I should be someplace else.

On my Nano

     Posted on 07/31/2010 by Sanuk D

For a present, on a cold and grey December morn another little iPod child was born. It was a Nano.

And my Sweet Lady sighed, ’cause if there’s one thing that she don’t need it’s another gadget blog for me to read. It’s a Nano.

People don’t you understand, my runnin’ needs a helpin’ hand. I like to have some music with me some days. Take a look at Fleet Feet, they’ve got accessories! So we can run a marathon and listen all the way.

And my CDs burned. So I ripped them all and made a list and synced it all. It was a jif. On my Nano.

I’d do long runs with tons of fun and listen to the Cure or the Rising Sons. On my Nano.

Then one day such great frustration my Nano died away. I tried to boot. I tried to charge. I tried the wheel but it’s bricked so hard.

And my Sweet Lady sighs. As I make a plan to see a man about my Nano.

As our credit dies on a cool and grey Holly Springs morn another little iPod child is born. It’s a Nano.

It’s a Nano.

It’s a Nano.

Trying not to kill Harper Lee

     Posted on 07/30/2010 by Sanuk D

Thanks to @xtyc for the free idea that inspired this post.

Bill came into the house dripping with sweat after his run.  Out of habit, he kicked his running shoes into the coat closet by the door and walked back to the bedroom where he flipped the switch on the clock radio.  He heard Bob Edwards’ voice but did not listen to the words as he went to take a shower.  Charlottesville was supposed to be cooler than Nashville, or at least that was what Bill hoped for.  He had chosen the University of Virginia over Ole Miss or Alabama because it’s law school had a better reputation.  Being in the Blue Ridge mountains didn’t hurt either.

He almost went to Ole Miss anyway, even though he had not intention of making class action law suits with Dickie Scruggs.  The magnolias in Oxford fit right in with his close cropped hair and tortoise rim glasses.  It’s not that Bill was all that conservative, but his whole image of what he wanted to be when he grew up was built around Gregory Peck’s depiction of Atticus Finch in “To Kill A Mockingbird.”  He rented the movie when he was a sophomore in high school on the night before there was to be a test on the book.  Bill had not, of course, actually read the book.  That image of an honorable man standing up for justice against all odds made a deep impression on him, and the next time he needed new lenses, he traded in his John Lennon glasses for Atticus Finch ones.

That summer, after he finished the books assigned to rising juniors, Bill happened across In Cold Blood. He was engaged, enraptured even, by Capote’s vivid account of the Clutter family’s brutal murder.  He finished it at Boy Scout camp.  When he got home, right before school was about to start, he saw in the paper that Truman Capote was dead.  Out on the road this morning, while Bill was running he thought about Capote’s other great work, Breakfast at Tiffany’s.  Like To Kill A Mockingbird, he had only seen the movie.  But he turned over in his mind the ways that he was like Holly Golightly, making up a persona for the people around him so that they could not get at the more horrid truth of his real life.

And the truth was that Truman Capote was not the only author he had killed, although he was the first.  It would be another five years before Bill did it again, but just as he was trying to decide between law school and journalism school, he came across All The King’s Men. One might imagine that, being an English major at Vanderbilt, Bill should have come across Robert Penn Warren significantly sooner.  There remains, however, a great deal of ambiguity regarding the leader of the Southern Agrarians in Kirkland Hall.  It was perhaps serendipitous that Bill picked up the book in the days just before his last year of classes would begin.  Not wanting to resemble the cow of the first chapter who is powerless to do anything but observe, Bill chose Atticus Finch over Jack Burden and the LSAT over the GMAT.  When he finished the book two weeks into the semester, Bill heard that Robert Penn Warren was dead.

That spring, in an effort to coast to graduation, he took the survey of southern literature course that had been put off since freshman year.  Bill was not much on being exclusive to a genre, but he loved the class.  He especially loved Walker Percy, picking up The Last Gentleman on Spring Break after having read The Moviegoer for the course.  As Bill was about to cast off his line from the only city in which he had ever lived, he could identify with Will Barrett’s disorientation and fainting spells.  By graduation, Walker Percy was dead.

Bill did not bring any novels to Charlottesville.  He was tempted to read through a John Grisham novel just for spite, but it turned out that not even spite was up to the task.  Not that there was a lack of reading material in his classes.  Contracts and torts kept him busy enough, but they lacked the sort of moral compass setting that Bill had come to rely on from literature.  At a time when most of his classmates were headed towards lucrative careers in big DC law firms, Bill’s vision of life as a simple country lawyer — doing pro bono work for the poor and downtrodden — seemed at best foolish and at worst irresponsible for the President of the Law Review of a leading school of law.  In desperation, he had picked up a copy of To Kill A Mockingbird in the Daedalus Bookshop.

The book had been beside his bed for a few weeks.  He knew it was a stupid notion, that he killed writers just by reading their work, but it was also hard to shake.  Like many people, Bill was hoping that Harper Lee (and JD Salinger and Ralph Ellison) would have a change of heart and publish some new work.  He could not fathom how he would feel if he killed Harper Lee, especially if she was working on something.  So the book sat by the bed with his glasses on top.  This morning as he reached for them with a hand wet from the shower, he thought he heard Bob Edwards say something about Harper Lee.  Bill froze, sure that just the intention of reading the book had brought doom.  James Carville, the Presidential Campaign Manager for the Governor of Arkansas, responded to Edwards’ question that yes, he in fact had been profoundly influenced by To Kill A Mockingbird. Bill put on his tortoise shell frames and threw the book in the garbage.

Doing the same thing, expecting similar results

     Posted on 07/29/2010 by Sanuk D

So, yesterday it seemed like such a good idea.  I was all giddy with the possibilities, and I went with it.  You know how this story goes, don’t you?  Morning regrets.  Walks of shame.  Maybe a typical Thursday for @michaelfmuller, but I continue to grasp at gossamer threads of dignity.  Why, then, did I go ahead and sign up for another marathon?  Didn’t I do my marathon for the year?  Yes, but having trained for one in the first half of the year means I still have time for another round of training.  I feel so ashamed.  What to do other than begin the training plan again.

“So what, exactly, is the plan Sanuk D?” you may be thinking to yourself.  Good question.  The first time I did a marathon I used a plan laid out by the venerable Hal Higdon.   Venerable because he is old, not because he is an Archdeacon.  I am not an Archdeacon, but I do like to take the Sabbath off from running.  So I stuck close to the plan except I ran a long run on Saturday instead of Sunday.   It was very good because I had never run a marathon, and I had no idea what to do and here was this thing that said “here, do this!”  So I did that and it worked out, mostly because I had some confidence in the plan.

So, the next couple of marathons I sort of did the Higdon plan, meaning that I did the long runs and sort of did the runs during the week.  This approach was not quite as successful.   In fact, the marathons — especially the second one — sucked.  Running marathons is not really healthy, I don’t think.  I mean, it’s healthier than not exercising, but it does do damage to the body.  The point of the experience ought to be something other than health.  Like fun. For me, runs around the 16 mile length are fun.  Lots of +20 mile runs are not fun.   Weeks that have a lot of < 5 mile runs bum me out too.  I get moody.

So, this last time I did a modified modified Higdon plan.   I ran 30 – 35 miles most work weeks and spread that out fairly evenly across the days. 6 weeks or so out, I ramped that up to around 35-40 miles for a few weeks.  On Saturdays, I ran increasingly longer runs working up to a 20 miler 3 weeks out.   My longest week was somewhere around 55 miles.  After that, I ran an 18 miler and a 16 miler and went back down to about 25-30 miles during the week.   The week before the marathon I ran about 20 miles total.  That’s all approximate.

So basically, the idea of building up mileage and then tapering seems to work, except that I have a relatively slow metabolism.  I need to give myself plenty of time to ramp up and not taper off too far.  Plus, this is supposed to be fun, right?  Ok, it’s a bad way to have fun but still.   I want to run enough for what is good for me mentally and what will allow me to have some fun when I go out.  I have heard that the Hanson Brothers have a plan that is essentially longer runs during the week and a shorter long run.  Whatever.  Running around like a loon sounds good to me as long as the total miles per week add up.  Given how the most recent race turned out, I’m willing to give this a shot again.

In search of Polk Salad Annie

     Posted on 07/28/2010 by Sanuk D

Down in Louisiana, New Orleans gets all the attention.  Given the food, music, and — ahem — laizze faire attitude of the city, that’s completely understandable.  It’s easy to miss, however, that a beautiful country lies just outside the city.  Part of why we miss it is because the area is hard to reach.  Swampy, infested with alligators.  Or crocodiles.  What really is the difference?  Anyway, it’s a hard place to explore, made only somewhat easier by the bridge that goes across Lake Pontchatrain.  Some of the kids at Brigadude lived on the far side of the bridge from New Orleans.  Their parents figured alligators (or crocodiles) were better company than the French Quarter.

Bernard de Marigny de Mandeville must have had kids too, or else he was just sick of New Orleans when he came across the lake in 1829.  It was considerably harder for him, given that there was no bridge or really a whole lot of locomotion on the lake.  He was getting the hell out anyway.  Going up the country, Mandeville built an estate with a driveway lined by live oaks.  His plantation was surrounded by water on three sides, and he planned it to be as grand as the noble estates of France.  He called his new home Fontainebleau.  He called the town that sprung up nearby Mandeville, because that’s how he rolled.  So, once you go out into the woods and get all the marrow of life sucked out, what do you do next?  Maybe someone’s father pulled him aside at a pool party and whispered that one word, “sugar.”

Long before tariff protection made it super lucrative, Mandeville established a sugar plantation.  The major sugar production at that time was going down in the Caribbean.  The people who worked on those plantations recorded a pretty horrific life.  Mortality rates were significantly higher for slaves in the cane breaks than in the cotton fields.  I don’t know for sure, but I would be willing to bet that the slaves on Mandeville’s plantation were treated more like other slaves on the continent than like slaves in the islands.  Which may be a fine point of distinction given that they were all, well, slaves.  But if the spirit of a place counts for anything, the people who lived and worked here are now at peace.

It’s easy to see what a refugee from the city would find appealing about life at Fontainbleau.  Under the cool shade of the Cypress and Live Oak trees, a breeze blows up off of Lake Pontchartrain.  Although you can’t see it, New Orleans radiates its energy across the water.  There is mystery and romance, but not so much of either to disrupt the calm ebb and flow of life.  Just up the road in Covington, Walker Percy used to walk to the Post Office and back home in between writing paragraphs.  The place he and Mandeville made their homes was not forgotten by time.  Time never knew it in the first place.

Make me a poster of an old rodeo

     Posted on 07/27/2010 by Sanuk D

Dexter Avenue Baptist Church

The Dexter Avenue Baptist Church is arguably the birthplace of the Civil Rights Movement.  At least it is the place where a new phase and leadership was ushered in when Martin Luther King, Jr. agreed to head the Montgomery Improvement Association, the organization which planned the Montgomery Bus Boycott.  This was Dr. King’s first church, and he had been there about a year.  When the boycott started, he was 26 years old.  At the age of 25, I stood in front of the church on a quiet Saturday afternoon and looked up the street at the Capitol of the State of Alabama.

The Alabama Capitol Building

It was on the portico of this building that Jefferson Davis took the oath of office for his first term as President of the Confederate States of America.  In a literal and legal sense, if not spiritual and political one, this is the site of the birth of the Confederacy.  Just around the corner is the well-preserved first White House of the South.  The capital was moved to Richmond after the secession of Virginia, so there was a White House there as well.  I do not know why the South chose to retain the practice of calling the Executive residence the White House.

The first southern White House

What I do know is that it is exceedingly strange to stand in sight of the nativity of two so radically different movements.  Both are loved and reviled by people that I simultaneously love and revile.  Living with paradox is a fact of life in the South, as is living in the middle of a complicated history.  Davis and the Confederates were absolutely wrong in defense of slavery but ironically right in their aspiration to preserve honor and dignity.  King and the Southern Christian Leadership Conference were actually upholding honor and dignity, but one has to wonder if there may have been ways to preserve more of our communities in the process.  The breath of the ghosts who ask these questions at the corner of South Decatur Street and Dexter Avenue blew through my spirit on that Saturday afternoon with gale force.